***Things to ponder***

Sometimes I really find it rather interesting as well as frightening to pray. This is because when it comes true, it becomes extremly frightening. Not that I am not happy that my prayer comes true but to know that everything that one prayed, written or have thought before, actually came to pass. God records and know all hearts!

Why do I say that? I am very happy that I am more fervent for God now. I don't know what I was doing while surfing the net and by God's will, I came across some sermon mp3 and artices of past well known and respected generals of God as well as some theoloy discussion net. Speak about wanting to know God more and to be more sharp in knowing and remembering the exact facts of the bible...

I mean... Wonderful to find these but it's frightening and shameful to know that I need to know so much more and look into different perspectives instead of being contented with what I knew and be proud of it. God's wisdom... Bewildering... Makes me wonder alot of things now...

Also, I came across sermon mp3 by... Jonathan Edwards - Sinners, at the Hands of Angry God. Though the sermon sounds old (of course a little old, as he existed about 300years ago) The person who preached had a deep voice but speaks in voice that convicts my heart. *Ponder*

Anyway, I really got to hasten things up. I must not waste time but to rise up. I do hope, that one day, I would want to be like those great men of God. Not for fame but for the glory of God. Preaching the word to the ends of the earth. To those who once rejected the word and was bias and to those who misundestood what was said. Indeed now I understand, why they say what's said had been said and asked by many before. I got to learn more from history; one which I used to like but gave up.